Thanks for your comment...I wanted to clear some things up though. I'm not texting R constantly when he's with his friends, nor do I expect him to talk to me while he's with his friends, or at work. It's him that is constantly texting me when I am with my friends. Only when I am unavaliable, does he want to talk to me was the point I was getting at.
We don't talk at all throughout the day, its just mostly at night...a check in on how the day is going, see if we're going to hang, or if something big happens during the day i'll shoot him a text. I know he's at work and never expect a huge text conversation back.
The whole problem I have is if he texts me and I don't answer within 15 minutes, I get another text, "You okay? You mad?" If I am with friends and don't answer...he will keep texting "Okay then..." "Well...have a good night..." "I hope you're having fun..."
If I were to come close to repeating those actions, he'd get pissed at me and tell me to back off. Occasionally when I'm sitting alone on a saturday night I'll text him and ask him how the night is going. He never responds until he's leaving which can be hours later. which is fine, who's watching their phone when they are having fun? The thing is...he can get away with not responding. If I did, he gets upset. The whole point of that blog was how everything is on his terms, and he can do whatever he wants...and I have to sensor myself constantly, and guess what is too much or what is too little, its like walking on eggshells and its just getting old and more and more frustrating.
Anyway--i'm really glad you still keep up with me. :)
It has been a great while. I am glad to have found you again. You remember a lot you say? Well...I can only ask if you remember the one that caused me great pain, the first one. The one with the girlfriend back when I was 16, 17 and 18. Well, it is him that has captured my heart once again. This time, he has no girlfriend. We became back in contact again about two years ago...and ever since then our chemistry has emerged and its been quite the roller coster as it once was. Only this time its different, he says, I say...I like to tell myself... only time will tell.
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